Am I Horrible?

I know that it's been a while since I have posted...not much has happened over the last few days. Today was a bit emotional though. I gave Leilani her first bit of formula today. A friend of mine had told me that to get her lil one to sleep through the night she would give her some formula for her night feeding. Leilani I have been feeling like my lil mama hasn't been getting satisfied with my milk. I have noticed that my milk supply seems to be lacking. So I thought that I would try the formula to see how it would be for her. Needless to say it took me almost 25 minutes just to bring myself to put the bottle in her mouth. She sucked down about 2 oz of it and fell to sleep. I love my lil girl and I want the absolute best for her. Why am I sooo brain washed about this whole formula and breast milk thing? I don't know why I feel horrible. Its hard to think about the fact that I just gave my lil girl artificial milk....should I feel like a failure? I really think that I am blowing this whole ordeal out of proportion....Maybe I will feel better in the morning.....

Happy 4th

Wow, these last 2 days have gone by in such a blur. Yesterday, we went and took family pictures.....

And it really was a lot of fun. I would have to say that we look A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. Little mama did very well. We had to stop and take a quick break because someone got fussy and had to be fed. But let me tell you, those photography studios are worse than used car sales men. Travis and I went in for the $9.95 package. You know the one where you get like 50 pictures of a single pose....Please explain to me how we ended up walking out of there with 13 poses and over 100 pictures...totaling close to $200. We even went in there with a game plan and said that we would be very on purpose about how much we would spend. This was not the case....that woman was good. She was good, she tried to get us to buy over 23 poses for a ridiculous amount of $$$$. But I have to admit that every picture that we got was great and she did a really good job. Take a look:

I even went and got my hair done yesterday. It was a nice day....

Fast forward to today.......we went to all of the families houses today and spent time with the parents (grandparents). The only thing about going to BBQ's is that I don't ever eat anything that anyone made. I don't eat pork, beef, or chicken (on the bone). So that leaves me to eat the bread and maybe some dessert....Needless to say I had fun WATCHING everyone else eat. So when we got home we chilaxed for a little bit and then Princess Leilani got hungry. I think that I have officially been inducted to the mommyhood......After I fed the baby she decided to spit up ALL over me....I mean down my bra and everything it was gross. But that's not the worst of it, so when I thought she was finished I laid her on my chest and started patting her back to get out any last minute bubbles from her tummy. You can only guess what happened next, yes, she pooped through her diaper all over my stomach, YUCK!!! It was disgusting, but I have to admit I handled it better than I expected. I guess theres something about handling the bodily fluids of you infant child that makes it not so disgusting :) Well thats been my day

Oh HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!!!

New Addition

So on June 3, 2009 my life changed forever. At 12:21 pm Leilani Elizabeth made her grand entrance to this world. Now 4 weeks later she is absolutely amazing. We have had a few bumps in the road but we are both learning our new roles. She loves to sleep ALLL day and stay up all night. However, I haven't been able to readjust my schedule to be able to sleep all day and stay up all night. The piece of advice that I keep getting from people is to sleep when the baby is sleeping....this is alot easier said than done. Travis is working so I feel bad asking him to help me with her at night. Well enough of the rant..... Introducing Leilani Elizabeth Boyce:

This outfit describes her perfectly...from birth (literally). She gave us quite a scare when she was attempting to enter this universe.....

She looks so serene in this picture.....

I love how she makes a million faces in her sleep.

I think someone might be camera shy!!! :)

Look at my beautiful purple princess!!